Thursdays, Thirstdays Same Thing

Thirstdays are the day of the week formerly known as Thursdays. This is the beginning of the weekend. [Benefit of being a business student.]

I have busted my butt for the last week studying for an exam, writing up two case analysis’ and taking a quiz. All three of those are in three different classes. It felt like midterms already because I was putting a lot of work into my studies. Keep in mind, I just finished week three of school…

Now that I have finished my exam I can not wait to relax and have some fun with my friends. [Of course, we have fun responsibly.] 🙂

 Normally, this is how our night will go. Taking advantage of the drink special that is twofers.

[[ twofers::  a drink special that a bar & grille [ironhorse] holds every thursday where you can get TWO DRINKS for the price of one! Which is just a college budget friendly price of $3.]]

As you can see to the left there are a bunch of plastic cupped drinks and a large glass drink with a Red Bull sticking out of it. That large drink is called an Irish Trash Can but that can be involved in another story.  Two of those little drinks are equivalent to the size of the big glass. Ususally a large drink would cost you $6. So, can you see why this special is just so special?!

When my friends and I set out for the night we will head downtown sometime around nine or later.  Then we can socialize and let out some steam after working so hard for the last week. Work hard play hard, right!

I may be talking about drinking but I have every right to be able to since I am of age. I do not condone underage drinking but if you are underage and choose to just, PLEASE, be safe. Be safe even if you are of age!

Purpose of this post:

Remember to always have fun! At least once a week. That’s my philosophy since going to college. Relaxing and taking your mind off the things that stress you out the most. After taking a break, when you return to your work you’ll be able to think more clearly. In my experience, college isn’t all about picking a social life and good grades. It’s more of a lesson on knowing who to time manage. Because you can’t have too much of a good thing and you can’t have too much work. Live and learn! Oh, and always remember to tip your bartenders. Bartenders who are just outright jerks and don’t know how to make a decent drink…screw them right.

sidenote

One thing I did notice about Montana is that some people who have never really lived outside of this state are kind of clueless. Clueless when taking their normal activities here to other cities out side of Montana. [when i refer to activities I mean drinking]

Montana people are a whole lot nicer and laid back kind of night scene when compared to others. It almost feels safe because in some weird cosmic way people all of over the state know each other somehow. Montana is a city in itself. 

My Pin Happy Weekly

Pinterest is my best procrastination tool. I love looking at all the pins my friends post and then browsing through random ones.  Scrolling yesterday I figured I’d share my end of the week fave pins. Problem, I have to narrow it down.

This week I have narrowed it down to
6 pins.

My pins kind of go with what is going on in my life. [I’m sure you do the same if you have a pinterest]

Just like the caption from Pinterest says, “You are. enough said”.

If I had the balls to color my hair I would love to try this.   A gray-white looks gorgeous.

I LOVE EVERYTHING MONOGRAMMED! .

I have been looking for a new pair of riding boots and haven’t had much luck.  That’s until I stumbled upon these beauties!

The one thing I absolutely LOVE about the fall is pumpkin flavored EVERYTHING!

Throwing a beauty party soon on proper application  of the makeup one owns and the brushes that can help  them get the look they need. Thought this would be a great,  healthy snack to have with a vegetable & fruit tray.

Crushing, Mixed Signals & Patience

Having a crush is so hard. The mixed signals and the millions of thoughts that whirl through your mind. Ugh, why can’t it be easier?

I am the last person to be crushing on anyone.  The last “relationship” I was in lasted seven months and I was in high school. So its been about 5-6 years since then. I’ve tried with new people but it just didn’t feel right I guess. I want to feel this deep feeling of ‘I want you more than anything’. Not a ‘I may like you so lets try’. To try just sounds like you’re setting yourself up for disaster.

Currently, I have been crushing on someone for awhile now and its been good because I am fine knowing that it may not be anything.  At least I know the guy and we talk occasionally. But then this new person jumped out of left field and was like a damn tornado. I barely knew the guy but for some reason there was something different. With all of the mixed signals I was over it fast because I don’t want to put up with the bullshit. It’s black & white, don’t give me the gray area.

Now I am returning to the happy place. The place where I am content with my current stance in life and have no stress because of stupid guys.

I am negative about guys right now and I am going to stay single for a long while but I do plan on dating eventually. I don’t want to date “just because”. I want to date because it’s worth it and deep down I know I want it more than anything.  AND the guy can reciprocate the feelings I would have for him.  I just know I have to wait and be patient. With that patience that I build I know it will be worth it when the time comes when I get a boyfriend.

Future Looking Bright

One of the hardest things for me to do is to be open and honest with people and sometimes to myself.  It’s the flaw that I don’t wish to have. But it’s something I am working on everyday.  Even writing this for you all to read is more than I can bear but I know that I will be okay with it later and be grateful.

It’s not like I am lying about everything in my life or anything.  It’s more of me lying about things that really affect me in such a negative way.  As cliché as it sounds, I am the girl that hides behind her smile.  I am notoriously good at having this facade that even if someone asks me if I am sure everything is good I can prove to them that everything truly is fine.

I don’t like having this skill.  It’s a skill that easily holds me back from really letting people in.

I am finally realizing that my past is a massive negative anchor that I need to cut away from.  It’s lead me to the point in my life that I have created this thick skin that no one is able to cut through.  Even my longest friend is finding out new things about me.  Things that I locked in a vault I buried deep in my mind and the only one that knows is me.

People fail to realize that I have been hurt many times in many ways than they can imagine.  I am the girl that everyone always say, ” oh, I would have never guessed. You just don’t look like that kind of person.”

That’s a classification that I absolutely dislike.

Yes, it may not be because of those hidden facts of me but it goes with every aspect in my life.  Just because I like to look as certain way doesn’t mean I have to fit in the – supposed – stereotype.

Anyways, I only wish for improvement from this.  This post is a huge step and I couldn’t be happier to push ‘publish’.  It may not be with certain people but writing and having you read this is more than enough right now.  Everyday I want to take a little step to opening up.  Which I have started on my friends. Now to expand.  It’s always hard to start with someone but I know I can do this.  I lost my faith and hope once but I need to remind myself of why I am taking these steps.

The future is only looking brighter.

Hurt & Learn

The first week of school is officially halfway done but for me it finishes today [thursday]. Business students are lucky enough to have a four day week.  

If you can’t tell already, I am posting this in the late evening of Wednesday but early morning of Thursday.  It’s about one a.m. and I have the urge to write than sleep.  

Last night was one of the worst nights I have had in a long time.  My anxiety had the best of me and the frustration could not have been any worse.  Long story short, my eyes were still puffy from how hard I cried until it cleared up that afternoon.  It felt like everyone could see it in class but I ignored the feeling and moved on with my day.  I kept as much hope in my mind that it would go away and it eventually did.  

I used to be the girl that would cry herself to sleep every night but no one ever knew.  It was my little secret.  Friends never understood why I didn’t like sleepovers of any kind but loved going home to my bed.  That was my safe haven.  The place where I can hide.  It’s sad when you do think about it but it hasn’t happened every night since the end of high school.  

I am beginning to learn that what happened in my past I shouldn’t be at all embarrassed. It’s the past for a reason. It happened and you move on.  That was one of my problems. I used to live in the past instead of the present.  I am just extremely happy that I am figuring that out because it is a step forward. 

After class I will be heading to Bozeman for the MSU Gold Rush Game.  I have high hopes that this trip will be fun because the other two times that I went to Bozeman I had a terrible time.  Keep your fingers crossed!

That Moment: Thank You

There are moments in your life that can alter your path in many ways that are good for you.  When these moments happen I like to think of them in the most positive way possible. If I didn’t then I would be a huge negative mess that no one would want to be around me.

I had a moment that is embarrassing to think about but makes me smile. How is it possible that something was not me in anyway could make me so happy?

I found that what I fear most was so minuscule.

It’s as if this moment made me stronger.  Every time it pops into my head I can’t help but smile and say, ” thank you”.

I know that a lot of you are confused and would love to know what happened but, for once, I wish to not tell anyone.  It’s one of the best kept secrets that I want to cherish forever.  I don’t need anyone to listen to it and give me their opinion on something that I have one look on and makes me happy! Why tarnish that?

My Makeup Staples

Growing up I was never allowed to wear make-up. That’s until a friend in highschool asked if she could put some on me during my freshman year. I’ll never forget the moment I saw what I looked like afterwards – renewed. I felt like an entirely revamped person. I was instantly hooked and had to get some myself. Eventually my mom found out and, luckily, wasn’t too upset.
Now, I absolutely love trying all kinds of makeup and experimenting with different techniques. After some time I have grown quite attached to the items that I currently use. I love them so much that I want to share with you my current favorites aka my makeup staples.

My Make-Up for my face by cchelini

 

1.  Tarte Cosmetics Amazonian Clay 12-Hour Blush – $26

This is a new addition to my collection and I absolutely fell in love with it.  I love that a very little goes a long way. I can just tap the head of the brush 3x or less and there’s enough color to cover both of my cheeks! The color that is presented is a lot more intimidating than it really is when used.  The pressed powder really gives you a choice in how defined and bright you wish it to be with little effort.  For the price, I can see this blush lasting me for quite a long time and I like that! The title even says it is a 12-hour blush and it stays true to it! The compact itself is small and can fit nicely in the palm of your hand.  It has a convenient mirror inside and is displayed nicely with a beautiful etching when first opened.  [I’m not sure how long the etching lasts but it’s still there after almost a month of use. That’s pretty good!]

2.  Benefit Cosmetics Boi-Ing Concealer – $20

This concealer is an industrial-strength concealer. It covers anything! I used to have a problem with my concealers when it came to using them for my dreaded under-eye circles. Not anymore with this one! I absolutely love that it doesn’t leave those unsightly creases after applying.  I also like that it’s a compact concealer instead of a liquid concealer.  I can easily control how much of the product I want to use and a little goes a long way! I also use this as a nice highlighter along my T-Zone.

3.  Tarte Cosmetics Amazonian Clay BB Illuminating Moisturizer – $32

I recently bought this because I was looking for a nice foundation/moisturizer that would be great for humidity.  After some time of research [I do love to research] I found that a lot of people enjoyed how BB Creams stayed – especially in humid places.  Of course, I had to get my hands on some and try it myself.  I initially wanted to try the popular BB Cream with the added primer but they were out of my shade. So I settled with the next best [only difference is that it didn’t have the added primer]. It has no unsettling smell and it is just as smooth as lotion.  After applying, your skin feels and looks soft and smooth.  I was shocked at how impressed I was with a BB Cream! Now I understand why people love them so much.

4.  Lancôme ‘La Base Pro’ Perfecting Makeup Primer – $42

I’ve had this primer for quite sometime and it is the first one that I have liked.  It is pricey but I didn’t buy it for that! I buy my moisturizers through Lancôme and they were having a sale where I ended up buying $150+ worth of product for about $80. Anyways, this primer leaves the skin feeling like velvet. As soft as velvet is – that is how it leaves your skin.  It is amazing! I mainly apply this in my T-Zone but some days I like to do all over. Depends on the look I am going for and the kind of day I am feeling.

5.  NARS Laguna Bronzing Powder – $36

I bought this bronzer in North Carolina at Sephora and OMG! At first test it was love.  I always knew that this was a popular staple item for many women. At least, according to many magazines. Naturally, I had to [eventually] buy it.  I have tan/olive skin and it can be hard to buy bronzers since most can be used as a foundation than a bronzer.  This one leaves a gorgeous natural looking bronze to the cheeks. And I can actually see it when I apply it.  I mainly use this as a definer, below the apples of the cheeks. It has glitter but it is quite lite.  It leaves your cheeks shimmery instead of looking like a disco ball when you’re in the sunlight.  And the compact that it comes in is quite large.  It’s larger than the palm of my hand and has a built in mirror. Overall, I am positive this will be a staple in my make-up bag.

6.  Select Cover-Up | MAC Cosmetics | NW35 – $18

I used to use this concealer for under my eyes but my skin likes to fluctuate in color.  Now it is a little too dark when I would like to lighten my already dark under-eye circles.  Now I use it as a definer for my dark zones on my face.  Kind of like a dark highlighter.  I couldn’t let it go to waste! It leaves a nice smooth finish that lasts all day.  The size of the bottle would make you question why I spent $18 on it but, just like the others, a little goes a long way. So no need to cake on the product!

Change can be a good thing

beyoutifulcliché.com

It has taken me a long time to really find a name that suits me the best. Finally, I can say that I think I have. Above I put a .com site that will be the name of my new site. Through many hours stressing over what is perfect I think I found it. I hope for the few followers and subscribers, that y’all won’t be upset or anything but be happy for my change. I’m excited for this change because it is also giving me more direction in what I want this blog to be. For awhile it’s been all over the place. And I think now I can start making more of a groove in the niche that I think is suitable for who I really am.

Feeling Renewed

The last couple of weeks have been crazy.  Moving out of the old place, living with my new roommate and her family until the new place is all ready to go. Starting new therapy sessions for my POF [premature ovarian failure] and taking little vacations to make my summer life more exciting.  

Now, we are officially moved into our new place and loving every minute of it.  Our place is simple but exemplifies exactly who we both are.  I think my favorite part is the amazing view out our living room window and the laundry room.  Never thought how grateful I would be to have a laundry within the same radius of my living quarters. 

With all of the changes happening I feel nearly renewed. Almost like I am starting over and exploring outside of my norms.  I’ve always loved changes of scenery and this is the best one yet.  Change is healthy. 

As I write this, I feel the happiest that I have been in a long time.  Haven’t smiled this much for no reason at all. I smile because the inside matches the outside.  There’s not many times that I can say that’s true but this time is different.

Just so you know.

I’ve noticed, since my post about my Premature Ovarian Failure [POF], that my posts are somewhat sad.  Besides my last one of course.  I guess I just have a lot of demons that I need to work on. 

I just want to put out there that I am not intending for this blog to be nothing but sadness. Merely to be a sign of hope for better days.  I only write what comes to mind or what is really taking a toll on my life.  Either positive or negative, it’ll be posted about.  Since it is summer I am finding more things to post that don’t relate to the biggest aspect of my life [POF]. The only obstacle that I am facing is not involving the people in my life as I don’t want anything negative to be placed on the people who matter to me most.  I don’t want to write something that could have them read this and think, “wow, so that’s how she feels about it”. Or what ever the situation could be.  

Then again, I am 90% sure that my closest friends don’t even read this.  So I don’t have much to worry about.   

Thought I would just let every one know that this blog of mine is going to be about me and the life that I live.  No aim for sympathy or people to love me or anything because of what I deal with.  I write to let out those things that eat at me.  Writing is my one place of solace.

Sooooo, 
From now on expect more random posts about anything else.  

To anyone that is consistent with my blog, if you have any questions about anything in life or just want my point-of-view, write me.  Don’t be scared to ask me anything! Either anonymous or not.  If you don’t want me to mention your name in my post to the question I’ll leave it out. 

Many thanks to all of you that do take time to read my blog!