The first week of school is officially halfway done but for me it finishes today [thursday]. Business students are lucky enough to have a four day week.
If you can’t tell already, I am posting this in the late evening of Wednesday but early morning of Thursday. It’s about one a.m. and I have the urge to write than sleep.
Last night was one of the worst nights I have had in a long time. My anxiety had the best of me and the frustration could not have been any worse. Long story short, my eyes were still puffy from how hard I cried until it cleared up that afternoon. It felt like everyone could see it in class but I ignored the feeling and moved on with my day. I kept as much hope in my mind that it would go away and it eventually did.
I used to be the girl that would cry herself to sleep every night but no one ever knew. It was my little secret. Friends never understood why I didn’t like sleepovers of any kind but loved going home to my bed. That was my safe haven. The place where I can hide. It’s sad when you do think about it but it hasn’t happened every night since the end of high school.
I am beginning to learn that what happened in my past I shouldn’t be at all embarrassed. It’s the past for a reason. It happened and you move on. That was one of my problems. I used to live in the past instead of the present. I am just extremely happy that I am figuring that out because it is a step forward.
After class I will be heading to Bozeman for the MSU Gold Rush Game. I have high hopes that this trip will be fun because the other two times that I went to Bozeman I had a terrible time. Keep your fingers crossed!