“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”
~F. Scott Fitzgerald
This quote really speaks to me. So glad I stumbled upon it.
The last couple of weeks have been crazy. Moving out of the old place, living with my new roommate and her family until the new place is all ready to go. Starting new therapy sessions for my POF [premature ovarian failure] and taking little vacations to make my summer life more exciting.
Now, we are officially moved into our new place and loving every minute of it. Our place is simple but exemplifies exactly who we both are. I think my favorite part is the amazing view out our living room window and the laundry room. Never thought how grateful I would be to have a laundry within the same radius of my living quarters.
With all of the changes happening I feel nearly renewed. Almost like I am starting over and exploring outside of my norms. I’ve always loved changes of scenery and this is the best one yet. Change is healthy.
As I write this, I feel the happiest that I have been in a long time. Haven’t smiled this much for no reason at all. I smile because the inside matches the outside. There’s not many times that I can say that’s true but this time is different.
I’ve noticed, since my post about my Premature Ovarian Failure [POF], that my posts are somewhat sad. Besides my last one of course. I guess I just have a lot of demons that I need to work on.
I just want to put out there that I am not intending for this blog to be nothing but sadness. Merely to be a sign of hope for better days. I only write what comes to mind or what is really taking a toll on my life. Either positive or negative, it’ll be posted about. Since it is summer I am finding more things to post that don’t relate to the biggest aspect of my life [POF]. The only obstacle that I am facing is not involving the people in my life as I don’t want anything negative to be placed on the people who matter to me most. I don’t want to write something that could have them read this and think, “wow, so that’s how she feels about it”. Or what ever the situation could be.
Then again, I am 90% sure that my closest friends don’t even read this. So I don’t have much to worry about.
Thought I would just let every one know that this blog of mine is going to be about me and the life that I live. No aim for sympathy or people to love me or anything because of what I deal with. I write to let out those things that eat at me. Writing is my one place of solace.
From now on expect more random posts about anything else.
To anyone that is consistent with my blog, if you have any questions about anything in life or just want my point-of-view, write me. Don’t be scared to ask me anything! Either anonymous or not. If you don’t want me to mention your name in my post to the question I’ll leave it out.
Many thanks to all of you that do take time to read my blog!
Isabelle Rose Chelini
Born June 6th, 2013 at 9:06AM
This moment has reminded me of hope. Hope for a better tomorrow.
It makes me incredibly happy to see my brothers family grow into such a happy environment.
I may not be able to have kids of my very own but, at least, I get to have a niece and nephew. My little nuggets that I get to spoil and care for with an abundance of love that is unimaginable.
“I don’t think of myself as a role model. I do try to live in a compassionate, considerate and positive way. The only advice I can offer is to find what you love to do, find the joy in it, and express yourself through your passion.”
Finding my passion is hard but I feel like I am on the brink of it.