My life has taken so many twist and turns in the last month. I can’t believe I am able to catch my breath right now.
There was a point where I really thought I hit rock bottom but I knew better. I knew better than to let the negative get the best of me. I had to stay strong and prove my self wrong. I can get through anything.
It was a rough battle but I now stand strong and can clearly see the light at the end of the tunnel. There are a few discrepancies but they are not holding me back any more. They are not this huge black spot that is blurring my vision. My vision does not need those but my mind needs to be reminded that they are there but I control how big they get.
I am truly blessed with all the people in my life. Even if it was a passing by or a long-term friend. Each encounter has created who I am today.
My most personal post was the hardest thing for me to share. Every emotion was running through my veins at the same time. My anxiety couldn’t have been any higher, but then…the responses from all of you. Soon after I began to be flooded with text messages, emails, messages on Facebook, comments, and personal encounters. I thought that it was forever going to be awkward with people but it wasn’t. It was peaceful. As if every anxiety of being around others was lifted and thrown away.
My heart grows happy with the amount of love I received that day. I feel like I gave people hope and the realization that every one is human. No one is perfect but a unique individual that people fail to recognize.
So, I thank everyone that took the time out of their day to read what has been eating at me for a long time.
I do not expect people to feel sorry for me. I wasn’t looking for attention. I was looking for a crane to lift the heavy burden that I carried on my shoulders for a few years now. I felt awkward and ugly because of what I have been going through and I made it run my life. I don’t want that anymore and I have decided to take my life back and be happy.