Insomniac: Not By Choice

It’s amazing how a couple days can seem like a lifetime when so many significant events occur. And every night that you lay in bed it becomes a familiar memory of the same thoughts. Like a broken record, you sift through the same ideas and going over and over them hoping to find some sort of positive. When in all reality, you are making it worse and worse. Finding the little things that you didn’t catch before.  Making them bigger than they needed to be.

Why is it so hard to accept what has happened? To be able to be fine with what life has equalled out to be?

These are only two of many questions that run through my mind.  Questions that dig deeper into what should be a simple thing.

I try to remind myself that I’m not alone.  I’m not the only person in the world that is unable to sleep because my mind decides to review life; go for a midnight run.

The highlights of my night consist of me finding the positive in everything.  To maintain that positivity will construct a habit that could be contagious.  A habit that is good for me and the ones I care about.

It’s hard but I know in the long run it will be worth it.


Hopefully Me…

Writing is my way of communicating my deepest thoughts.  If you are privileged to have the chance to journey into my mind; you’re special.  Not a lot of people are blessed with the access.  Yet, that’s why most of my thoughts are under lock and key.  Being hurt so many times leaves a wall. A wall that has a brick for every memory and history of my life that helped build it.  But with every opening, there is a small light of hope that begins to disintegrate the brick and mortar that was created.  When I say disintegrate I am referring to the idea that it does not disappear. It merely becomes a positive memory; another book in the library of me. Taking what has had a negative impact and turning it into something positive. Leaving a happier and everyday improving me.  and I can not think of anything else that I am striving to be.

Standing on my own two feet…

Hello World,

I have not set an actual post but something to set me out before the real postings start.  

Blogging is something that I have always wanted to attempt but never knew how to begin.  Then again, how do you start something so foreign? I slowly figured out that the best way to have what I want is to just delve into it.  Don’t look but just go for it.  So, I thought, what do I have to lose? So here I am! 

My life is full of random events.  Events that make life so simple and events that throw me in a tail spin.  Keeping me guessing and second guessing what life is all about.  Whether you want to read about it or not, this blog is for me to write it all down.  I find my life quite entertaining and I hope you do too.  

Sometimes when things happen I tend to be a little insightful…okay, maybe very insightful.  And I hope that a piece of my mind can open your mind a smidgen. Whatever the case, I hope you enjoy and I can’t wait to share!

Love, Me ❤